Appointment update and Father's Day

I finally heard back from the specialist, Dr. Laskin's office. I have an appointment scheduled for August 24th, however, I'm on their cancellation list so hopefully I may be able to get in sooner. That would be so awesome. I just want to get a definitive answer about this lupus anticoagulant marker. From what I understand, it is not unusual to get a false positive, in which case, I wouldn't need to be put on blood thinners during pregnancy. However, if I am positive, I would need blood thinners and I would need to be monitored more closely. Since I did lose Kaitlyn, I expect that my next pregnancy would be monitored closely, in fact, I will probably insist on it for my own peace of mind. At this point, all I want is a healthy baby, but an extra bonus would be to be negative for the anticoagulant marker and be able to have a natural pregnancy, as we had done with Kaitlyn.

Last night, I was lying in bed, thinking about my Kaitlyn, when I just got an overwhelming urge to hold her, and comfort her. I wanted to hear her cry so I could run to her and pick her up and rock her back to sleep. I've been feeling very nurturing lately. I want my baby to nurture, but instead, Chris is getting all that nurturing, luckily, he's enjoying it. With Father's day approaching, I've been thinking about something to do for Chris. I think this day will be a bit easier for me than mother's day, but I had really wanted to be able to make something with Kaitlyn's hand prints or something. Instead, his gift will be about memories, rather than marvelling at how much our baby had grown in the past month. But Chris deserves to be celebrated as well. We have both gone through one of the hardest experience any parent has ever had to go through and he has been such an amazing husband and father to Kaitlyn through it all, I want to show him how appreciated he is.